Fortress or Prison?

What is stopping me?

What is holding me back?

Is it even mine or is it someone else's problem altogether?

I feel as though it is not mine to deal with and yet how could it be another's?

For it is not one point of resistance, directed at me from one source,

but I see a blockade everywhere I turn.

No, It must be mine and mine alone to defeat.

And yet, how can I?

I try my most cunning plan and it is in vain.

Is this a wall I have built to guard myself?

Or is it a cage someone else has put me in?

If given, then was it given to me for my good or to confine me?

Is it of my hand or from another?

Or is it merely there, unchangeable?

Is it to be defeated at all,

Or is it there to keep safe the things I value most?

Perhaps I shall never know from whence it came or for what purpose.

I only wish I knew what to do with it now.

-Sabrina Bleu

warning: Don't worry, I'm not going through some major struggle or anything. Although, it would be a lie to say it isn't at all inspired by real life. Take it for what you will.